An Apology To Everyone I've Hurt

I'm a very toxic player. Or at least I was, as my account has been permabanned. Now to start I just want to say this is NOT a pitiful cry to try and get my account unbanned. It's gone forever, I lost the privilege of playing on it when I violated the Summoners code. That said, I wanted to take a moment to write a heartfelt apology. This goes out to everyone I've ever hurt with with my violently toxic insults and chat flame. I've been thinking about this all night, and I can finally see past the red of my anger issues and realize just how wrong I was. It doesn't matter if my teammate is 0/3 and tries to tower dive his lane opponent, calling him a "R****d failed abort**n f****t" is uncalled for. No one deserves to be treated that way. NO ONE. So to anyone who I've flamed, insulted, and hurt, I sincerely apologize for any and all hurt I've done to you. On behalf of all of the other toxic players who hurt people I apologize for their behavior as well. We're f***ed up people, and we take our anger issues out on innocent people in lots of different ways because we don't know how to deal with them. Personally my anger comes from my friends, and how we fell apart. I had been playing League for almost 5 years, and in the beginning it was the best thing ever. I made a solid group of friends and we had the most fun ever. It was the first time I had ever made real friends in my life. But as years went by a rift started to grow between us. Now I only ever play League by myself and every time I play part of me is reminded of the pain of losing those people. And pain makes me angry. And so I play and play, and get angrier and angrier, until I snap and some poor, innocent soul gets the brunt of my pent up aggression. That is wrong, there is no acceptable excuse for it, and I apologize. I want people to know that we're not really bad people, toxic people like me. We just make bad decisions in the moment, our judgement clouded by our anger. So I'm so sorry, to anyone who has been hurt by myself or any other toxic players. We know we're wrong, it just sometimes takes things like a permaban to get us too see it. I want to thank Riot and their dedication to try and make League a less toxic place. I think now I might try starting to put my toxicity behind me, and maybe my hurt from my past as well. Again I want to reiterate that I do NOT want my account unbanned. This is a punishment I deserve and I accept. This is an apology I felt I needed to make to try and put this part of my life to rest. So once again, to everyone I've hurt, I'm so very sorry. I hope you'll forgive me and the people like me. Good luck on the rift. ~ GeniusTheFourth
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