Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
Before I tell my story, let me just say I am very grateful for the support of my family, my work, and my co-workers.
I am blessed to have them.
October 2012, I met a girl. A girl that would become the mother of my child, and the love of my life.
Together we have a beautiful little girl, who has both autism and down syndrome.
This girl(my daughters mom) did not have the easiest upbringing. As a child she watched her mother cheat on her father and repeatably screw him over. But no matter what, he was always there for her, no matter what she did. Eventually the man drank himself to death while my daughters mother(kelli) was only 11 years old. Leaving her alone with her mother. For the next 7 years of her life, she was alone. Her mother would be home, maybe one day out of the week, just to do laundry and drop off groceries, than she would go out with whatever man or men she was entertaining at the time. Meanwhile my daughters mother(Kelli) was trapped in a abusive relationship all through highschool, where she was beaten everyday of her life, and her mother never came around to help her.
Fast forward to Oct 2012. This is where I came into the picture. I fell in love with her the instant I saw her, to this day she is still the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life. I kept her ex boyfriend away from her, and ultimately saved her from her abusive relationship. 1year into dating, we were pregnant with our daughter Felicity. We loved eachother deeply, but as early as 6months into it, she was already showing signs of following in the footsteps of her mother. I would go to military training for a week, she would cheat everytime. The odds that my daughter is even biologically mine, are not good. But I refuse to ask for a paternity test, because it wouldn't change my opinion that Felicity is my daughter. Anyways, we went on for the next 3years, she would cheat here and there, I would forgive her and we would make up. I understood she is a broken person, and she only values herself the way she saw her mother value herself.
Once we got to the 4year mark, she ended up leaving me for another man, a coworker of hers. He was a good man.
They dated for 3years, and were engaged for 2. The entire time they were together, I never gave up on her, I knew she still was in love with me.
There wasn't a single day in their 3year relationship that we didn't see eachother, I felt bad for her fiancé but I could not let him stand in my way of repairing my family. She and I were intimate atleast 5 times a week, every week , since the dawn of their relationship. Maybe it was wrong of me to perpetuate her self destructive behavior as a cheater, but I felt it was the right thing to do. I felt our family was supposed to be together.
After 3 years, she left him for me.
Just last month we got back together, she and my daughter moved back in with me, things were going wonderfully.
But her problems began showing their face again, and again, she left me for another co-worker. The poor girl is her mother, but just like her father, I will never give up on her, just like he never gave up on her mother. I will always be there for her, no matter what she does, because I understand her and I know she needs help. Today, Kellis mother is trapped in a abusive relationship, and I fear that is where Kellis path is going to take her, but when it happens I will be here to save her. Unfortunately her fathers passing, prevented him from being able to save her mother.
Even if I have to live a entire life of heartbreak and misery I will never give up on her, I will always be there for her, and I will always protect her. Nothing will ever stop me, unless she finds true happiness with someone else. Because when you love someone you don't give up on them, regardless of their mistakes and personal problems.
True love is as painful as it is rewarding, I have faith for the future, and I hope one day my family will be complete again.
if not, I hope she finds happiness with someone else, who loves her as much as I do.