I've been playing League of Legends since August 8th, 2016. It has been so quick to see it all go by but unfortunately, I haven't improved since then. Perhaps I have become worse overtime and its all my fault. Not my team, not my laptop, no one else but me.
When I did play earlier back in Season 7(started in season 6 when Kled was released) I was still an unranked player as I am today and having accidentally played ranked as Sona, I got two wins. Don't know how, just got carried hard. I never played it again out of fear and stuck to either normals or bots.
The reason for this post is that I'm out of options or just simply don't understand what to do atm. I used to have friends that helped me out with the game but since then, they all grew tired of me. I complain, I tilt to myself, I even swear I let myself to die on purpose in game. Its a bad thing to do, I know. I uninstall after losing a game and reinstall it a few hours later and have done this more than 10 times this year alone. I can't control my emotions.
I admit I'm bad, I suck, and I'm stuck. I don't know what to do now and with the time wasted doing literally nothing and not improving, I wonder if it is even worth playing the game anymore. I want a second opinion and if willing, some advice. I have ADHD and Aspberger's if that is of any relevance and yeah. I guess that is it.